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Count Down To Christmas

December is usually a well-behaved month. With Santa overseeing all behavior, I rarely have to raise my voice or encourage the angels on my children’s shoulders to provide the right direction. On top of that, a quick word of reprimand to Junior usually results in Daisy being a model child as a bonus. I don’t want her to fear me but it keeps me from yelling at her when I am on edge.

School in December is fraught with bake sales and cookie swaps and extra required baking events. I have always tried to keep two sacred cookie baking days aside also. The first on a Friday where I bake like there is no tomorrow and the second on the following day when I include the kids. It’s a slower process and the decorating of our sugar cookies takes time. I love these days. The warmth and smell of the kitchen, the wearing of my Christmas apron for two straight days, the counting of each type of cookie as I box and freeze for entertaining and gift giving makes me feel certain Santa really is coming.

Junior had been giving off vibes about the true existence of Santa, but like most mothers I was able to convince him to believe in order to still get presents. That is, until he found some presents behind my shoes at the bottom of my closet. While searching for a pair of sturdy shoes to wear to school one morning, I noticed that the shoe boxes were out of order. I’m no great sleuth, but I could remember how I hid the gifts. I didn’t say anything to Junior but there were a couple of presents that would obviously be his if he thought about it. I had to come up with a plan.

One afternoon while the children were at school, I took the presents out of the closet and wrapped them, adding tags that had a lone B or G on the tags. I packed the presents into bags and lined them by the door. When the children came home from school and saw the bags, Daisy asked about the gifts. I told the children that I had decided to buy presents for orphan boys and girls and had wrapped them. I told the children that I marked them for by placing letters on the tags. Daisy asked if the orphans would be coming over for Christmas and while I answered her, Junior quickly left the room. Later, I checked to see if the shoes I had left in a certain order had been moved and there were a few left out of place. Junior was very quiet at dinner and I told Steve about my discovery.

The next day, I took the bags over to Mags and she hid them for me until I could rewrap them and tag them for Christmas. Junior’s reserved demeanor continued until the weekend when we visited the department store for pictures with Santa. Usually these pictures are either hit or miss with one or both children with their eyes closed or a sullen look and they never smiled in unison. This year, the pictures were beautiful. Junior had a great big smile for Santa, a list prepared and even asked Santa to bring something for his favorite little sister. Daisy’s face at that moment was priceless. I look forward to a few more days with the great believer in our home. Peace on earth is wonderful.

 

Jailhouse Rock

Music has always been a part of our lives. Big band tunes helped us get through the war and when Steve and I first dated, I loved love songs and slow dancing. After the kids came along, I played some records with children’s songs every day as we sang and danced along. Christmas songs help us keep traditions going and every birthday has to have at least one version of the happy birthday song.

Today’s modern music is different. Called rock and roll, it has a much more upbeat tone and requires a whole different manner of dance to fit it. Stevie and his friends had started to listen to this music on their transistor radios jammed up against their ears. I am concerned that they are going to ruin their hearing. Once Stevie found out that his favorite songs were available on 45’s, he kept begging me to buy him some to play on our hi-fi. I really wasn’t sure he was old enough to play records on our fancy equipment and asked Steve to talk with Junior before giving our permission. I also wasn’t keen on having music blaring in the living room at all hours. I generally like things quiet at home.

After their chat, Steve asked about Junior having his own time each day for him to choose to play his records. It was an excellent compromise and since he only had a couple of records, he would probably tire of listening to them over and over. Turns out I was very wrong. On top of that, Junior has been inviting another friend over each afternoon so they can listen to their 45s also. Oh boy.

Now I have a different goal. Junior might need his own record player for his own room. I will have to do some investigation on this subject for Christmas. This became an important time to think about this project with Elvis’ newest release, a record called “Jailhouse Rock.” I’m not sure I am ready for hearing that multiple times every afternoon sung by two young boys. My living room has become a record studio with the boys pretending to hold microphones and sing as loudly as possible. By the time I had dinner prepared, I really understood the meaning of the name of the record.

I Can Read You Like a Book

With only a month left in the semester, I was grateful for a week off to complete the end of term papers and reading required. I was doing well with Lucy’s class, although the amount of work in this class was definitely more than last year. I felt a need to improve my writing based on her comments and tried to incorporate those changes in some manner into stories to show progress.

With my newfound attempts to not be intimidated by Mr. Snow, I was trying to remember that when I read the required work, I was ready for class. His writing demands weren’t tremendous but there was still an open book exam. I loved that idea. Since I did the reading all I had to do was find it again. The few papers he had assigned previously weren’t returned quickly but there weren’t many remarks on mine and they received fair grades. I don’t think Mr. Snow liked reading as much as he liked assigning reading assignments.

To prepare for the open book exam, I started back at the beginning of the text and started reading through each chapter, noting the items I had highlighted the first time they were read. Reading the text highlights again helped reinforce the important parts.

I really wish life had an open book. Many times I have learned how to handle a situation by going through it. Being an expert after the fact doesn’t seem to be the best way to make good decisions. I’m not against the school of hard knocks and have learned many lessons that way. But I would love to be able to consult an expert book on life in tough situations.

Junior was the baby I needed a good textbook to understand. Daisy  benefitted from being the second child. I was a proper mess with Junior when he was a baby and I read Dr. Spock’s book to figure out how to care for him. My book must have been missing a few chapters since there were many tearful times I thumbed through it trying to get a straight answer. The good news was that I was a better mother with more knowledge when Daisy was born. And I think I was more relaxed the second time around. I had already mastered the art of holding a crying baby and running the vacuum at the same time. Early on, I discovered that when I couldn’t get Junior to stop crying, I cried. If I vacuumed at the same time, the noise startled Junior and he stopped crying. Our carpet was very clean that year.

An open book in my life would include the answers to so many situations. I am sometimes perplexed by my husband and it would be great to have some man facts. Dealing with parents and in-laws seems to test everyone in life. As each relationship ages, the needs change. If I had a guide on my mother-in-law, Mother Jones, I would make less missteps.

As for my relationships with my friends, I feel pretty good without an encyclopedia. Seeing us all tackle life together is a team event. I learn from them and their experiences are closer to mine, giving me choices in perspective. I guess open books are great for some subjects but life wouldn’t be much fun without some random choices. I think Mr. Snow’s open book test will be a good challenge for me.

Je Vous Remercie Pour De Ce Délicieux Repas

It had grown to be a regular event to state what we were thankful for at each Thanksgiving dinner. Traditions are important and I didn’t want to change this one because the answers are usually centered around the joys of that specific day – food and family. Everyone takes pleasure in hearing little ones give answers that reiterate the values of the family.

But what makes us thankful on a random Thursday? Chloe was still getting used to our day of Thanksgiving. She probably had a lot of thankful days after the war when she was able to come to the states. Chloe told me that she wanted to see if she could cook a traditional Thanksgiving meal, so we made plans to have a pre-holiday dinner party for both our families. Chloe and I gathered lots of ladies magazines and Chloe searched for traditional recipes that sounded good to her and she looked through my recipe box. I had a few old cards from my mother and Mother Jones in with mine as well as enough cookbooks with fall favorites to make it easy to choose what to make. Chloe understood the turkey was central but a French turkey is usually a wild bird and a little scrawny. It didn’t need to be big according to Chloe because she didn’t want a lot of leftovers.

I had to stop when I heard Chloe speak like that. No leftovers? Chloe didn’t like to have leftovers unless they could be added to make a brand new meal, like an omelet. Oh mon dieu. So unAmerican. But this was Chloe’s Thanksgiving, so I shut my mouth as we forged on through the menu. Chloe insisted on an appetizer. I suggested a relish tray to nibble on with drinks. Chloe insisted on a cheese course. I suggested macaroni and cheese. Chloe insisted on some fresh fruit to clear the palate. I suggested a Jello mold with mandarin oranges or cranberry sauce. Chloe insisted on a root vegetable. I immediately suggested mashed potatoes with gravy. It was clear that my ideas didn’t translate into French well. I sat quietly and told Chloe that I would help her with any choices she made.

When our pre-Thanksgiving day arrived, Chloe and I worked feverishly all day in her kitchen. Steve and Francis played with the children as they raked leaves. Chloe’s table sparkled with crystal and china. I was hoping my children wouldn’t even dare to take a drink during dinner in case they dropped one of those beautiful pieces. Chloe let me borrow one of her aprons and the steam and heat of the kitchen flushed our faces. I was following the recipes chosen by Chloe and we would stop from time to time to check on our progress and check off items completed. Mid-afternoon, Chloe announced a break. Chloe took a bottle of wine from the icebox and poured two glasses. We took our glasses out the back door and sat on the back stoop to smoke. Chloe gently wiped her brow and clinked glasses with mine. She called me a true friend, vrai ami. After we got our second wind, we only had last minute preparations to complete. We gave the men and children a 30 minute warning for dinner and started to fill the table. There was a beautiful mix of French classics and American standards. Just before we went into the dining room to eat, Chloe went to light the candles. Inadvertently, I opened a small drawer looking for my lipstick. I felt a little silly but in all the heat and work, I forgot what kitchen I was in and followed my usual habit. I laughed when I saw that the drawer held the same things I stashed at my house. There were two tubes of lipstick, a comb and a small mirror at the ready. I guess no matter where we come from, we girls need to look our best. I realized I knew what I was going to be thankful for this year.

I Stumbled But I Won’t Fall

Food coma month began well. The weather turned noticeably colder and I started making hot chocolate for the kids in the morning to warm and spoil them. The trick was making it early enough to lower the temperature to the perfect drinking zone for when they sat down without letting it get cool enough not to be comforting. The slightly melted marshmallows were a bonus of this feat. I usually make oatmeal or cream of wheat a couple of times a week so everyone has a good hot breakfast.

It’s more fun to make dinner when it is cold outside. Pots of stew and simmering soups are my own antidote to the chilly temperatures and making hot casseroles not only makes dinner easy, it’s delicious. And it’s easy to add in everyone’s favorite hot casseroles. This year I started making two casseroles on some days to make it easier to serve dinner on time on class days. I was getting pretty good at this organization thing. Everyone sleeps better with a full tummy.

Chloe shared my love of fall cooking but the casseroles she made had exotic names like gratin and involved more cheese. She had fancier names for stews too. Chloe also shared with me that she drank more red wine in the cooler months. I had never thought about changing wines for the seasons and generally follow the rule for white wine for chicken and fish. Being exposed to foreign cooking had its rewards. Granted, I liked fruity cocktails in the summer and never passed up a highball in the fall, so I do acknowledge the change of seasons in my own way.

I was hosting card party this week, so organizing was a priority. I raced through my cleaning routine and finished the laundry early enough in the week to insure that everyone had the clothes they needed. I ended staying up late Monday night to finish a paper for Lucy’s class and finish Mr. Snow’s reading assignment. The reading was difficult and when I caught myself having to read a few paragraphs a third time, I went to bed. I was quiet at breakfast but every one got fed and took a lunch with them. I packed a couple of homemade cookies in Steve’s briefcase and considered bringing some cookies to Mr. Snow. I wasn’t sure if that was even allowed.

In Snow’s class, I must have looked as if I wasn’t paying attention and got called on. Although I knew the answer, I stumbled a little through my answer. Mr. Snow walked down the aisle towards me. My heart was beating rapidly as he stopped and looked at me closely. Neither of us said anything as he examined my face. I managed a small smile and he turned and walked back up front. I didn’t hear a word he said for a few minutes.

At the card party, we were enjoying some apple cranberry cocktails with a warm cheese dip and crackers. Sarah asked me about school and I told her how scared I was of one of my teachers. Sarah is quiet but wise and should talk more often. She told me that being shy made her feel powerless as a child. Everyone stopped and listened attentively. Good little girls did not make a fuss or grab attention according to Sarah. Sarah went on to let us know how she handled people who scared her. Sarah had learned that if she chose not to let them have power over her, she won the battle. So smart. When we’re afraid, it’s because we don’t have power. Sarah must be as tough as nails inside. Everyone started discussing times when they felt afraid and agreed that someone else had robbed them of something intangible. Sarah’s discosure was very helpful to me and my butterfly-filled stomach. When I prepared for classes, I did my best. I had no illusions about being an A+ student in all of my classes. But I wanted to learn.

It was good for everyone to see Sarah as powerful. It really changed our preconceived notions about how to get the upper hand in scary situations. I poured Sarah another cocktail and thanked her for the advice. Maybe Sarah should be teaching. Sarah summed up her thoughts by saying that her grandmother always told her a stumble might prevent a fall. Sarah thought that high emotions alert us to situations that might result in damage. That’s helpful to remember; I hope I can develop a way to explain that to my children. It is what’s inside that counts.

You Can Dress Me Up

Gail decided that we were going to dress up for Halloween for our card party. I confess that this is one of my least favorite holidays. I think that its fun to dress up the children and enjoy their experience but I have always felt that adults dressed up to make up for something in their own lives. If I dressed up in an outfit that told the world how I felt everyday, some days I would be a driver, or a cook, or a student or a maid. I wear a lot of hats. The occasional striped prison suit might communicate my feelings at stressful times. If we all did this, we would all know at a glance how everyone else was feeling.

I presumed others were having trouble with Gail’s choice too, so Mags stepped in and told Gail that we should all dress as the same thing. At least this plan would take the competition out of it. Until Gail announced we would all be Marilyn Monroe. Gail gave out the assignments for food and the choices were expected to represent food from a Hollywood party. I had chosen an appetizer, and started to consider what to make. I made little pigs in blankets with a bacon layer on the outside. Planning my appetizer would help me to put off how to make my hair platinum.

On the day before the card party, I hid in the bathroom with cans of dry shampoo and talcum and liberally sprinkled it into my hair. Repeating this technique a few times helped brighten my hair but real platinum blonde would be impossible. I brushed out the excess and started to make dinner.

Needless to say, the kids and Steve stared at my head all night. I excused myself after dinner to start looking through my closet for something to wear. I ended up wearing a white vest of Steve’s over a circle skirt with a wide belt cinched tightly around my waist. A well-placed mole and lots of black eyeliner helped. After putting more white powder in my hair, I tied a scarf as a head band on my head to hold the front wave in place. Marilyn would not recognize me as her doppelgänger.

Arriving at Gail’s, I was overwhelmed with Marilyns of all shapes and sizes. It was a good look on many of my friends but Edie had to be the best. Edie’s baby belly was sticking out under her sparkly dress she found at a thrift store. Edie looked strangely sexy as a pregnant Marilyn and walked around with a hand on her back due to the constant ache she was experiencing. Edie’s hair was hidden in a turban with a huge costume jewelry gem pinned to the front. Mags also made a good showing in a very uncharacteristic way. Mags had picked up a brand new mop head at the grocery store and took it apart and resewed it styled in long waves. It was quite lovely and went well with her long black gown. She sauntered around with a cigarette hanging from a long cigarette holder. Her long black gloves clung to her arms and her bracelets were sparkly. As usual, Mags was the epitome of Marilyn. Gail took some pictures of the group and we took turns taking pictures so everyone was in a couple of them.

The card party was more fun than I thought it would be. Even though dressing up wasn’t my favorite thing about the holiday, I enjoyed it once I got into the swing of it. I even began to understand the wisdom of Mags’ choice. Being Marilyn, even for a few hours, could be fun for anyone. It was a good choice. Dressing up takes us out of our usual selves and lets us pretend to be different.

Pumpkin Head

Not far from our community lies farmland and a farm that allows  kids to ride on a wagon full of hay to travel to a pumpkin patch. Daisy’s class had taken a trip there but Junior wanted to go as a family. Steve and I talked it over and decided to go Saturday afternoon. We would have to pack everyone into my car. As I headed to the driver’s seat, Steve and I both put our hands on the door handle at the same time. I showed him I had the keys and as he reached out to take them from my hand, I closed my fist and told him that I would drive. My car, my right to drive. I told Steve that he could navigate and keep an eye on the backseat and the kids. He quietly went around and got in the passenger seat. As you know, I am not usually this demanding, but I still haven’t been given the opportunity to drive the new car, so Steve gets to mind the kids. I don’t drive the same way as my husband, so I anticipated some back seat driving from the passenger seat. I don’t make excuses for the fact that I drive carefully. I have children in the car. I don’t speed, I watch out for others and I gradually stop at yellow lights if I can.

By the time we reached the farm, Steve had answered the children’s many questions about the length of time it would take to arrive, what we would do there and how many pumpkins we would be able to fit in the trunk. Granted, the trunk is not huge but bigger than Steve’s car. We could get big pumpkins.

The afternoon was fun and the cool air in the open fields made it feel more seasonal. Daisy’s fingers looked a little red and I pulled out a pair of mittens that I had tucked away in my pocket. Junior’s nose was red too but it just made him look cuter. Steve and I walked behind the kids as they marched up and down the rows of pumpkins searching for the perfect pumpkin. Most of the pumpkins had small  spots or marks and looked very real unlike those specimens for sale at the grocery store. Eventually, both children found their perfect pumpkin. I carried Daisy’s and Junior carried his own back to the wagon and we headed back to the barn to get warm cider and cinnamon donuts. We paid for our pumpkins and headed toward the car to go home. Steve excused himself and headed back inside the barn. By the time I had everyone settled in the car with the pumpkins resting comfortably in the trunk, Steve returned with two more pumpkins to carve. I squeezed the pumpkins in with the others; it was a happy fall sight in that trunk.

The next afternoon, I took the newspaper and spread it out on the kitchen table. We rolled up our sleeves and Steve cut the tops off the pumpkins. We reached inside and pulled out the gooey, stringy centers and plopped them on the newspapers. This was disgusting and fun work for the kids and they made lots of dramatic noises as they separated the seedy innards. I pulled out a lot of the seeds and cleaned them to roast on a large sheet pan with lots of salt. Steve and I took large spoons and cleaned out the rest of the pulp and then the kids drew their spooky  faces to show where to cut into the flesh. Steve made the major cuts for Daisy and started Junior’s but they did a great job at refining their designs. Junior’s had giant teeth and Daisy’s had a crooked smile. Steve and I carved ours and I made designs all over mine to let the candlelight shine through. Steve’s looked like a space creature with three eyes. I wasn’t sure he actually planned it that way but sometimes you just have to work with what you have.

That night, we placed the pumpkins on the front porch with the candles lit inside. When it turned dark, we talked outside and stepped back to the sidewalk to admire our work. From start to finish, we had fun with the pumpkins. Choosing and making your own creation gives you pride. Our little collection would provide fun for everyone who passed by our home.

Dancing Daisy

I had no idea that Daisy would stay interested in dance classes past the first month. I signed her up for the lessons when school started thinking that she would tire of the regimen quickly. Daisy, like many little girls, loves to dance around the house pretending to be on tippy-toe. Marie-Claire wanted to dance too and Chloe called around to a few schools to get the particulars so we could send them together. I really wasn’t sure I could shoehorn one more adventure into my weekly calendar. Chloe assured me that if Daisy signed up with Marie-Claire, she could take the girls to class and sit and wait for them if I needed to read or study. I love my supportive friends. I don’t talk about school too much, but everybody knows what I am trying to do; my unspoken plan to gradually get my family to adapt to my returning to school. I think a couple of my pals may be taking their own notes on how to train their own families.

Dance classes were an investment. The outfits, the slippers, the pink bows, the dance bag, etc. The list went on and on. Daisy’s curls were untraditional for a dancer and she wanted to grow them out to make a bun. That change alone was a going to add to our morning prep time.

I took a couple of turns driving last month so Chloe could have some alone time and I could check out the classes. The little girls were adorable. Daisy was pretty good at performing the steps and holding her head up. Maybe this type of training might help her grow up stronger. And she looked like an angel. This week, Daisy packed her own bag to take to class and placed her little slippers in the bag with reverence. Generally, Daisy is a little rougher on her baby dolls and they tend to get negligent care between playtimes. Daisy was sitting up straighter at the table too.

Yesterday, Chloe and I were discussing the girls over coffee. I think French women are pretty cool overall. Chloe does not usually display much emotion but she was making chirping sounds when discussing Marie-Claire’s dancing around the house and practicing. She was so proud. I admit to not understanding much about these feelings towards dance. There were no slippers in my girlhood and I don’t consider myself a good dancer even now. We only have the chance to dance a couple of times a year and one of those is tipsy New Year’s Eve at Mags’ annual party. I used to enjoy dancing with the soldiers at the canteen. Where did that love of dance go? Maybe I need to remember to play music while I clean. Daisy dances around without background music but I need a soundtrack. And come to think of it, I don’t skip anymore either. Or jump rope. I think Chloe and I would look great jumping rope out on the front sidewalk. I wonder when it became uncool to have girl fun.

Incorporating acceptable fun into my daily life would be a good goal. I wonder how Steve would feel about taking couples dance lessons? I might have to figure out how and when to slip that question into a conversation.

Dressing the Part

Pumpkins started sprouting everywhere. They were joined by ghosts and goblins. It happens every fall, the leaves start to turn brilliant shades and blow around carelessly, the grocers suddenly have carving pumpkins up front, the ladies magazines feature comforting food, and I take stock of my jackets.

The fall jacket, the necessary wardrobe piece designed to wear when chilly but not cold. It can’t be too bright because then it would be appropriate  for spring. Darker tones foreshadow the cloudier skies ahead. I was fascinated with the myriad types of jackets students wore to class. They identified the tribe the student belonged to. Bomber style jackets jackets were still in style but noted the wearer’s allegiance toward an edgier motorcycle look. Men’s suit jackets were more colorful these days and a stylish square poked out of top pockets. For women, swingier styles still covered pencil thin skirts and a useful trenchcoat filled in on rainy days. My variety of jackets didn’t scream student and I felt matronly somedays. I yearned to be a cool kid.

I decided to do some shopping. Generally speaking, most department stores are segmented into areas to help you purchase exactly what you need for each member of the family. Steve didn’t love shopping, so I usually just replaced his shirts, ties and socks with new ones. When he needed a new suit, it was more of an event. The tailor had to measure, pinch, tuck and mark a jacket and pants and after alterations, the suit could be picked up and worn. This took some time, so suits were usually ordered with a longer lead time before an event. I personally loved shopping in the men’s department and spent lots of time considering the options before buying the items I knew Steve would wear. Nothing too flashy was the goal.

I wandered around the men’s department gently touching the fabrics and looking for something to catch my attention. As I turned toward the main aisle, my eyes found two large round displays with jackets. A veritable cornucopia of choices. I looked around to see how many people were in the department, slinging my handbag over my arm and started looking at the jackets one by one. Would I fit into a medium? Maybe a small? There was no way to tell but to be brave and try one on. I found one I liked and dropped my bag on the floor, quickly taking the jacket off the hanger to slip on. I couldn’t use the men’s fitting room and the ladies department was on a different floor. The jacket felt a little awkward but the bottom fell right below my waist. I liked that. I hung that one back up and kept looking. As I was checking out the selection, a salesman came by to ask if I required help. I politely turned him down in too high a voice and spoke so quickly I advertised my discomfort. He gave me a sideways glance and moved to a nearby table to pretend to remove lint from piles of sweaters. I must have kicked his shoplifter radar into gear.

Eventually I found a jacket I really liked in a size that looked right. I quickly held it up in front of me to check it out but felt funny trying it on. Luckily, just at that moment, the salesman was asked to help another customer. I crouched over and slid the jacket on and while adjusting the sleeves, I could feel someone come up behind me. I stood up and turned to see the salesman right in front of me with an elderly customer by his side. The customer looked at me and smiled and I just stood still staring at her. To further make her point, the lady leaned in to tell me that she understood because she preferred to wear men’s boxers because they are cooler than ladies panties. The salesman looked from my face to hers and shook his head. Modern day women must be quite a shock sometimes.

A few minutes later, the salesman kindly and quietly completed my purchase for my new jacket. Cook kids, here I come.

You Don’t Scare Me

Instructor Snow kept all of us very consistent. Everyone arrived before class, took the same seats each time and stayed mostly quiet except when called on. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach before class, during class and while I relived the class in my head on the way to Lucy’s class. If you didn’t complete the readings, you were probably not prepared to answer the questions Mr. Snow asked. The assignments were not creative but did reinforce the facts in the text. The first time I was called on, I could feel my cheeks flush and the slight pause that occurred before I opened my mouth to answer felt like ten minutes. Mr. Snow moved forward after my answer, so I guess it was correct. I trembled for a few minutes before I resurfaced to hear what he was saying. A small group of us were all in Lucy’s class next, so we walked over to that building together, discussing the extreme stiffness of the class.

Lucy gave an extra assignment to the class that week, but I looked forward to writing another short piece. The subject was meant for Halloween but it seemed uniquely suited to our previous class. The subject was a paper about what scared us. A couple of chuckles that couldn’t be suppressed slipped out and Lucy paused for a moment and looked thoughtful. Lucy admitted that she was surprised that asking us to write about something scary caused laughter. She wasn’t speaking in an accusatory voice, more like perplexed.

I hesitantly spoke up and told Lucy that there could be scary things about school or classes. She asked for more clarity. I hesitated and another classmate talked about the possibility that a few people in the class might write about the same person and it was an instructor. Lucy gasped. I quickly added that it wasn’t her and it wasn’t so much the school work as the personality presenting the class in such a strict manner.

Lucy started to laugh a little and said she understood. Lucy walked back to the front of the classroom and waited about ten seconds before admitting that she had been taught by Mr. Snow in the past. This time, it was our turn to gasp. When the nervous giggling ended, Lucy moved on to the next discussion.

I guess Mr. Snow’s reputation was well known. Maybe it was just a rite of passage to get through his class. We all have difficult tasks in life that we look back at with a pride of accomplishment. I was really hoping it would be worth it.